Re: youtube

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i want to look at a piece of real shit art and go: "heh. yes. i made that."

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teeks erinevaid videoid erinevate youtuberite stiilides? ma väljendan oma mõtteid, seisukohti ja ideid, kuid ma editin videot ja teen sääraseid nalju nagu mõni teine youtuber teeks.


*creepily on the kapp* *le wild editing magic* *stares into the camera a little too close from the other side of the room* Hellou! /the jump somewhere?/

Ah, welcome to my video on this fine or not so fine day, dear non-excistent audience. It's going to be just like whenever i tweet something isn't it. Uh, okay.
I wanted to do something different than writing for a chance so here i am, talking to a camera. I have a really shitty one that tends to fuck up everyhting so i've probrably said the same sentence a hundred times, which is one of the reasons i talk really weird and like i'm readind a script. The other reason is that i litteraly am reading whole sentences that i wrote down. I am really unsure about my English, sorry, will try to get better.

So i've very createvly named my channel LiisaHasTwoEyes because i find older youtubers shitty names endearing

[Isis Nigra Nox]

*creepily on the kapp* *le wild editing magic* *stares into the camera a little too close from the other side of the room* Hellou!

video teema: hi im new on youtube and trying to find myself creatively

/im liisa with two eyes and i'm a flawed and complex human being just like you. that's what a stupid robot would say when trying to disquise itself as human. i'm a stupid robot, sounds about right./

1. who am i, where am i from, everyday problems (getting out of bed, going to school, mum blaming everything on the computer)

2. idk if i really want to achieve anything with this channel, i just want to be weird on the internet. *mesilase video* but i would enjoy having like maybe ten people think i'm funny

3. drawing, writing, singing

4. i rly wanted to do something youtube'i but a lil closer to my heart so i ate mustard. but it wasn't that interesting and i'm rly dissapointed.

so if you liked this video consider becoming my friend!

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i forgot earlier, but if you're a person who is considering starting youtube but is a bit afraid and unsure then this is your wake up call right now. do the thing and tweet your video at me or comment something below and i will check it out!

[Isis Nigra Nox]

Hello peeps of the internet!
I'm Liisa with two eyes and i come from estonia which is why i don't usually speak with long sentences. So
ive been told on multible occasions that im cringy. ive also noticed that only 12-yo girls find me funny. so i thought: perfect! ill make a youtube channel

I don't know if i want to achieve anything with this.. I mean i would like to have maybe 10 ppl think i'm funny and i enjoy the idea of seeing a really bad piece of art and going: Yes, i made that. But mostly, i just need to put my creativity somewhere so i don't go mental.
Yeah, i'm going to be weird on the internet, that's what's going to be happening here.

So if you couldn't guess already: I'm a human being! And i too hate some cliché things! Such as getting out of bed and going to the school. I spend way too much time on the internet... And my mums blames all my problems on that.

I have loads of things i like to do! I enjoy writing, drawing, crying myself to sleep and contemplaiting the fact that all forms of communication are extremely hard to master and that perfection is only a consept which noone can actually ever live up to. And i like to sing! But... Yeah. I blame that on the fact that in third grade girls had to go to the choir and boys didn't... so i naturally rebeled againts it and never went. I tend to get irrational when i feel something is even slightly unfair.

If you enjoyed this video, pleace consider becoming my friend! You can do that by subscribing. I would really love to have a small community of my own. And if you are putting off doing something creative, this is your wakeup call! Make that video, draw that shitty picture, write that smutty fanfic and be sure to share it with me! I'll support and love you as much as i can! Which might not be very much, but i'll try and you should too!

[Isis Nigra Nox]

*the thing with boobs
*im a responsible adult who has everything togheter. not.

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when someone reminds me of my age and what i should do and all that
*screaming, crying, hiding on the floor* no, im smol

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EVERYTHING IS FINE!!1/evERYthing Is fiNE11!/ i'm aN ADULT!/

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Bleep
Bloop
Hellou to you, friends and family, whom i force to watch these. And if i you're new here.. What are you doing with your life? Please let me know, i'm desperately in need of ideas as i have to figure it out soon.

I like to think that i'm pretty good at english but whenever i turn this camera on, reality just hits me. And whenever i write a word-by-word script for these videos... I understand that i'm even less funny in english than i am in estonian.

And why am i talking about this? Well, as you've maybe figured out from the video title, i honestly don't know yet what i'm calling this abomination, today i am trying to talk about why it's hard for me to talk.

I don't really know what's wrong with me lately, i just open my mouth and the words don't seem to come out as i want them to.

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trying to be as politically correct and right by the tumblr standard as possible

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you might think "liisa, your english isn't very good but that's fair enough, that's not your mothertounge" but i have litterarly given up on estonian. like what the fuck even. we have rules and then we have rules about when the rules don't apply and then there's this word stacking thingaling and i honestly, i just don't fucking know, i've never know how to write properly. i had dyslecia when i was younger but now i've just truly given up. i can't even speak it anymore. idk what's happening. i thought education was meant to improve you

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and i always tell the same story like 100 times to the same ppl and i just cant remember who ive told something and if i do that to you just stop me before i bore you to death.
i just realised that this makes me seem like i have friends...
which i do, i'm not relatable, oh my god

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letter to older self

the thing with forgetfulness

[Isis Nigra Nox]

"I'm a liar"

how i don't seem to tell stories truhtfully bc a lie comes out of my mouth for some fucking reason and if i start to take it back ppl are going to get really uninterested or think that i have issues or whatever.

and idk why i do that and why i cant stop.

maybe it's just that i talk before i think, i'm too fast and i always need to say something.

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the gender thingaling

wanting to be viewed mor masculine when im with a guy and feeling really uncomftable when im viewed female when i am with someone, who is or appears to be male

not giving a shit when im with a girl and being pretty much fine with being viewed as a female

am i faking it to just force my gay agenda or what the fuck is up? bc i cant just like switch it on and off, its how i feel, but at the same time i feel like im faking it, when i know im not.

its just really confusing and hard for even me to understand myself completely

and when other ppl just view me as a fake or whatever... it doesnt really make things easier. which is why i dont want to talk about it really bc i dont know what the fuck is up and how to explain it to you guys

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letter to older self

Hi
I'm sorry
I don't know what i did, but you're problably embarassed of stuff that i thought would be a good idea.
But if you're embarassed bc i'm a phan then i'm afraid we can't be friends anymore.
But i know you love me anyways, so lets continue, shall we.

[Isis Nigra Nox]

fun phan DIYs!!

*pmst regular DIY-s aga phan-i twistiga orsmth*

*normaalsed asjad 2-3*
*veidi hüsteeriliseks muutumine bc mingid järgmised asjad on rasked 2-3*
*setting up your own amazingphil shrine!*
*satanic ritual to summon dan*

[Isis Nigra Nox]

*bleach the shit out of something to make it as pale as phil

[Isis Nigra Nox]

recreating makeup looks with cheap makeup

[Isis Nigra Nox]

*hoW MaNY cHiLDreN Do YoU waNT/wHEn ARe yoU HAvInG ChIlDrEn
*finding a job/selling your soul

[Isis Nigra Nox]

me? a dumb bitch?
*how i have to do shit 2 times and have to learn stuff for myself even if ppl give me advice and shit bc it won't stick if i dont have experience and feel like i came up with the solution myself*

[Isis Nigra Nox]

im a massive hyporcite

[Isis Nigra Nox]

".. and if you need more proof that im utter filth and completely fake then i rase you this: all of the sentences in this video have been scripted, including this one, and im just reading them out loud bc thats how pathetic i am... just kidding. its actually my camera, its shit. i cant have it run for longer than a minute or it will fuck up the audio. i hope i can be more sincere when i finally get the money to buy a new one. if i ever make more videos in my life. who knows what i feel like. bye!"

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